Have you ever? On grief and mourning.
Have you ever experienced the death of a loved one? Have you ever felt grief? Have you ever had that grief overtake your mind and body? Have you ever had to deal with that grief day in and day out? Have you ever suffered or known a loved one to suffer from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder due to abuse, suffering and grief accompanied with sadness? Have you ever suffered at the hands of injustice? Have you ever had your child stay at a loved ones or a sleep over or camp and miss them so much it was unbearable? Have you ever missed a special event of a loved one or a child? Have you ever had a loved one or child to suffer an illness or accident and no way to help or support them? Have you ever suffered at the hands of injustice or had your life under a close microscope even though there has never been the hint, suggestion, implication or accusation as to any wrongdoing as a mother or as a spouse? Have you ever known the agony of an untold story?
There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.
Have you ever had to learn to be strong enough to become an advocate? Have you ever been an advocate for 20 plus years? Have you ever adopted a child that had no mother? Have you ever suffered an illness only to find out that nearly 1,000 others since 2001 have the same illness and work everyday for the state as a Certified Peer Specialist? Have you ever gotten full justice and favor from the state only to continue to suffer due to the hands of another to include parental alienation and estrangement? Have you ever gone ten years keeping most of your “personal feelings” locked up? Have you ever suffered and dealt with the 5 stages of mourning and grief, being denial and isolation, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance? Have you ever suffered the pain and agony of denial and shock, anger and guilt, bargaining with yourself or with God, deep sadness and despair, acceptance?
Imagine this scenario. You have a perfect beautiful open and loving relationship with a loved one. You are hospitalized for marital discord and abuse. You are released from the hospital and the relationship is no longer. It no longer exists and you must live for ten years suffering the loss of this relationship and sadness and despair in missing your loved one. Have you ever had to mourn a loss and deal with all the emotions that arise, anger, sadness and pain? Have you ever went 10 years for no just reason and not seen the smile on your loved ones face? It’s not enough to be forgiving, compassionate and understanding you MUST ACT. Have you ever had 20 plus years worth of advocacy and support in and outside the courtroom? When forgiveness is the only thing left to do have you ever just given up? Have you ever?
Have you ever had to face the day making yourself happy? Have you ever had to reach so far down to make yourself happy and to continue with the day? Have you ever had to force yourself to put on a smile? Have you ever had to force yourself to live a productive life even in the face of adversity and darkness? Have you ever been the victim of abuse? Have you ever been the victim of abuse and been told to keep your mouth shut? Have you ever researched what the State of GA considers an advocate? Have you ever been an advocate? Have you ever been the support system for an abused victim? Have you ever experienced ALL of the above and then some? Have you ever had tears so strong and so hot that you just knew that they would never stop falling? Have you ever mourned a loss or the loss or death of a loved one everyday for ten years? Have you ever been in a state of grief and loss for over ten years? Have you ever been justified or shown justice by a person or the state only to be left with grief, depression, sadness and anger?
Have you ever known the sweetness of justice only to be left grieving? Have you ever forgiven only to be left aching?
Have you ever shared grief, loss and mourning as a true advocate would?
Have you ever experienced ALL of the above and then some?