Climbing Arabian Mountain

I felt so insignificant today. Or rather I feel so insignificant. I attended a training class offered through View Point Health in Lawrenceville which was nice and was a very good class. But me, Brian and William went for a walk at Arabian Mountain just outside the Rockdale County line in Dekalb County GA and seeing the wilderness, the trees, the mountains, the rocks, the deer and wildlife, the frogs were too cute. Seeing all this had my heart a stir and made me feel so insignificant to the world’s hugeness. I tell myself everyday in so many ways I am no longer hurting in certain specific ways I used to be but it still gets hard. In tears as I blog I just feel so insignificant at the moment and fell in love with just how pretty and huge the wilderness of Arabian Mountain really is. I want so badly for me and my son Tyler to be able to hold my daughter in our arms giving her so much love. The court’s have righted a wrong made years ago but the ache and the pain and alienation still remain. I have been working so hard on obtaining my CPS Certified Peer Specialist Certification for the State of GA. I have applied several times now and have not been accepted. It has become discouraging at this time for me. I did receive scholarship for The GA Peer Institute training and was so pleased to have been a guest at the training. I have once again made application for my CPS Certification and just felt so small and insignificant in the wilderness of Arabian Mountain today. I often tell myself that I have the world at my fingertips “right from home” with the Internet. Given a time I thought I would never be able to read or write again as I was banned from books and literature for a while during a very trying time in my life. I was so lost. But for nearly 3 years now I have been a full time blogger at The Covington News, Covington, GA USA November marking my 3rd year Anniversary. It has been so therapeutic for me and has served its purpose well and has kept me involved in many community activities and kept me very involved in life. The photography I have gotten and posted has been great and large in numbers. Volumes of photos and blogs are at my Covington News blog and here at Word Press. I want so badly to receive my CPS Certification so that I may begin to help others in my community by continuing to share my story of recovery. I have been a large part of The Respect Institute per Mr. Joel Slack and have graduated the program and told my recovery story to many but I want more. I want to be able to work for the State of GA and to show this State that you “DO NOT” alienate the mentally challenged from their children and rip them and their lives apart. 

1000+ Georgia Certified Peer Specialists Since October 2001

The State has rectified their once mistake time and time again but it has changed nothing as far as the reunification process of me and my daughter’s and my ex- husband continuing to alienate and estrange us by the act of hate. I want this state of GA to know that there have been 1000+ Georgia Certified Peer Specialists Since October 2001. 

And the requirements include:

> Candidates must have diagnosis of mental illness or a dual diagnosis of mental illness and addictive disease and must desire to identify themselves as a person with mental illness current or former consumer of mental health services.

> Applicants must hold a high school diploma or GED and may be requested to provide a copy of this document.

> Must demonstrate strong reading comprehension and written communication skills as indicated on their responses on the pre – test which is part of the application.

> Must have demonstrated experience with leadership, advocacy or governance.

> Must be well grounded in recovery

These facts are taken directly from the Certified Peer Specialist brochure.

This State wrecked my life and I  have had to work so hard and diligently to rebuild it the best way possible and still function in life. Having a productive life of strength and resiliency. 

The wilderness of Arabian Mountain. God’s bountiful nature just makes me realize how truly insignificant I truly am and that he is holy and just and will continue to show me purpose and meaning as I fervently pray for a life of thriving and peace. 

The beauty and peacefulness of the wilderness at Arabian Mountain has brought me to my knees tonight in prayer and thanksgiving. Thanksgiving for being able to turn a life around that was treated wrongly instead of being aggressive using my coping skills and being assertive in life and in the courtroom to have many wins to name for family violence victims and the mentally challenged. Making a life for myself and a way int this big wide world instead of getting angry and oblivious and turning my story into a story of positive wins in court and a story of recovery not always the victimization end of the totem pole. At one point in time while in college I worked as a juvenile probation officer and visited the children in their school, home and work environments prior to my internship with the Newton County Public Defender’s Office and Esquire Mr. John Strauss, Sr. My goal is to eventually work with the ACT Team as a CPS Specialist and visit clients in their home and work environment;s helping them to build a better life for themselves and keeping their head held high and not allowing the stigma of the mentally challenged to overcome or overbear them. So as not to weigh them down. 

Arabian Mountain is a must see and it touches your heart. On being the heroine of my life and not the victim. IMG_1450


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