I have arrived.

I have a brochure that I have kept since 2004 that I picked up at Rockdale Hospital to share with Honorable Nation one day and that one day came to pass for me and I was able to share my opinion of family violence and mental illness. Given Honorable Nation refused to allow me to see my 4 girls due to being seen and treated in the hospital for family violence and depression even though Northside and Peachford had reported it to The Rockdale County Sheriff’s Department the RCSO closed the case only 2 weeks after it had been reported by hospital staff due to not being able to locate me. Years later I was able under my Pro Se case to have Lt. John Mumford of the RCSO, Northside emergency room staff, my private psychiatrist, Dekalb Community Service Board attorney and staff to all personally appear to testify on my behalf in Honorable Nation courtroom. I recall Honorable Nation telling the doctor that “It had been many years since he had a doctor to personally appear in his courtroom.” So I know that Honorable Nation will never forget my Pro Se case. I have also had the opportunity to speak to Honrable Nation at the drug store and ice cream parlor across the street from courthouse about family violence after my Pro Se hearing just one day out of the blue we ran into one another. Honorable Nation was also the judge that performed the adoption of my 3 step daughters in 1999. At my very first hearing ever against Mr. Sasser Honorable Nation told Mr. Sasser that I could see my older 3 girls anytime I desired and for him not to interfere in the relationship. Mr. Sasser has continued over the years with is stories, lies and excuses to my girls about our parental alienation and estrangement period.

The brochure went on to discuss Bi Polar and how the fact that it was just as important to note that as the heart, lungs, kidneys, blood pressure could go faulty so could the brain and it was considered a medical problem and not your fault and you were not to blame for having a mental challenge just as other main body parts could go faulty so could the brain and it should be considered a medical issue and be addressed as such. I used that brochure to my advantage when speaking to Honorable Nation and to courtroom staff and psychiatrists about my story. I still have the brochure after all these years.

You are not to blame for having a medical problem just as the heart, lungs, kidneys, blood pressure can go faulty and suffer so can your brain and should be treated no differently and therefore there is no room for stigma in this world nor in my life. Even though I have had many problems with close friends and family since my initial diagnosis of mental illness and divorce. People that I thought would never disappoint me nor let me down nor abandon me have done so. Over the years as I have proven Mr. Sasser and the world wrong in their perception of me and continued to thrive and grow and mature some not all but some have came around but the brief period of shame, guilt and estrangement from loved ones and the pain that came with it still remains strong in my heart and I still grieve it daily.

I have also since our  parental alienation period discovered that there were Certified Peer Specialists in the 2000’s working and under employment for the Georgia Mental Health Consumer Network working with mental illness for the State. The requirements include:

Certified Peer Specialist

1100+ Georgia Certified Peer Specialists Since October 2001 Since 2001 to present I have written often of becoming a Certified Peer Specialist to include the following requirements: > Candidates must have diagnosis of mental illness or a dual diagnosis of mental illness and addictive disease and must desire to identify themselves as a person with mental illness current or former consumer of mental health services. > Applicants must hold a high school diploma or GED and may be requested to provide a copy of this document. > Must demonstrate strong reading comprehension and written communication skills as indicated on their responses on the pre – test which is part of the application. > Must have demonstrated experience with leadership, advocacy or governance. > Must be well grounded in recovery These facts are taken directly from the Certified Peer Specialist brochure. The motto of the CPS being “Each One Reach One.”

I have been in study attended the conference GA Peer Support Institute training in order to obtain my CPS Certification and hopefully one day in my near future will be chosen as and awarded a scholarship to attend the training for CPS. It has been a goal and dream of mine for some time now.

But my point being why were me and my 4 girls who once shared a very close, open and loving bond alienated from one another to begin with? Overnight I might add just as if they had died. Which is how I have grieved it as if there had been a passing of my 4 girls and diagnosed with PTSD due to the parental alienation period.

I have had much and great success in a court of law asserting our rights as mother and daughter’s but even given I have had much and great success and Mr. Sasser and his family have never had any complaint per my mothering nor as a wife Mr. Sasser continues to do anything and everything within his power to alienate me from my 4 girls. There has never been the slightest question, hint, suggestion, implication nor accusation on my behalf as to any wrong doing, remiss, neglect nor abuse on my behalf as a mother nor as a wife to Mr. Sasser yet a close, loving bong and relationship was torn apart and my girls have suffered dearly because of it leading less than productive and progressive lives that I had them working towards since a very young age and as their primary care giver and a pillar of my community.

Mental illness is considered Non Linear in the fact that there is the possibility of relapse and it has taken me 11 years worth of recovery and hard work not to relapse given I have been separated, alienated and estranged from my 4 girls by Mr. Sasser and his family not the judicial system for 11 years now and he continues to remain in a constant state of contempt even given several judges have informed him and court ordered him to have my girls in therapy and that it would be best for him not to interfere in our relationships and that a relationship with me was in the best interest of my girls.

After living with 10 plus years of marital abuse what can one expect of me?

I do not really discuss specifics of how Mr. Sasser continually hurt me in order to save his livelyhood but Mr. Sasser can assuredly remember how he would spend his Thursday nights and then how terrible our “me and my children’s” weekend would be and how much we would suffer for days due to his Thursday night “runs.”. I hated Thursday nights for years.

It is included in Honorable Bills prepared proposed Opinion being Mr. Sasser’s attorney at the time that I would be given custody of our youngest daughter and for Mr. Sasser not interfere in the relationship between me and my older girls and for my to continue with my therapy for codependency. Everyone was fully aware of Mr. Sasser’s shortcomings and that I had been the victim to them and the caregiver codependent for years being I dealt with others problems of drugs, alcoholism and gambling including being a full time primary care giver to 5 children.

I was able to attend college the same year my youngest daughter was born and graduated the Business/Legal Office program of study and obtained my Paralegal certification by graduating with dual awards in 2002 just prior to our divorce. I would probably be an attorney by now had I not suffered being raped over the coals by Mr. Sasser, his family and the court system. I try not dwelling on the would be’s and should be’s and have attempted to make a strong difference in the O.C.G.A. for me, my girls and future generations along with pursuing and having a career in the health care world as a nursing assistant and personal care giver which I have accomplished and am now looking to progress in my field into the hospital environment which I am currently working on along with obtaining my CPS Certification.

Everyone needs to know that whole health wellness is very important but it is just as important to note that the brain can go faulty just like any other organ of the body and deserves to be treated just like any other ailment or illness and cared about with empathy, compassion and sympathy and a loving supportive, caring, understanding support system just as with any medical illness.

There should be no stigma attached with being mentally challenged and I hope to see it outed during my lifetime as I have and continue to be a strong advocate for whole health wellness and for all illness including the brain to be treated equally and looked at by judges in a just, honest and educated point of view and perspective.

Unfortunately God had to have somebody set the precedent in the O.C.G.A. and chose me to do so just as I did in the early 1990’s with my older girls eventually adopting them. Unfortunately given it has been part of the good Lord’s divine purpose and plan for my life to impact the O.C.G.A. it has caused me and my girls to be alienated from one another. I have prayed daily since August of 2004 and have fallen to my knees on many account. I pray about the Lord’s will and purpose and this divine plan of his in our lives fervently and constantly and that he will give me strength, hope and faith to continue thriving until the day comes that I am able to explain and show my girls the truth of these matter in black and white authenticated documented record not just my opinion.

The Mental Health Justice Community is a place you can retreat to with no stigma, no judgment and everyone is welcome.

http://www.mentalhealthjustice.net/

I will be working to promote this Community and campaign over the next months as October welcomes Domestic Violence Awareness and Prevention as well.

Please take a moment to visit The Mental Health Justice Community web site and at facebook and share in your quote and story of mental illness and stomping out stigma.

Stigma brings pain, shame, guilt and resentment and with much grieving. Fortunately I have been strong enough to handle this pain and anguish and continue to thrive daily. Wanting to be and do more than just thrive but with much and great success. I am thankful and prayerful that I do thrive and have seen brighter and happier days than August of 2004. The “after me” beginning.

Hopefully I will be able to reach and get through and set the example for The Mental Health Courts which I have already been in front of the judge that handles it and asserted my story, opinion and right’s and he has been in constant agreement with me. So hopefully I will be able to reach the mental health courts and the fact of just how important advocacy, therapy and therapeutic processes are so important. Pleading for Judges to be just, fair and honest in their rulings and to consider mental illness just as any other medical ailment or illness. Just as serious and just as the same as if any other body part had gone faulty and for the world to see it this way and share in their loved ones lives without stigma and judgment and estrangement.

Join me this upcoming week in sharing more of my story and advocating for the Mental Health Justice Community.

I have been a strong advocate and proven that there is no room for stigma in my life and will not be tolerated. Small hands can single handedly change the world and I am determined to and have had a very nice start in the O.C.G.A. by doing so justly and fairly and never belittling nor shaming the attorney’s involved in my case. Always trying to live positively and prove them wrong and be that difference that the world was waiting to see come along.

I have arrived.

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