An eye for an eye

An eye for an eye or the law of retaliation, is the principle that a person who has injured another person is penalized to a similar degree, or in softer interpretations, the victim receives the [estimated] value of the injury in compensation

Matthew 5:38

New Living Translation
“You have heard the law that says the punishment must match the injury: ‘An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth.’

Love Your Enemies
38“You have heard that it was said, ‘AN EYE FOR AN EYE, AND A TOOTH FOR A TOOTH.’ 39“But I say to you, do not resist an evil person; but whoever slaps you on your right cheek, turn the other to him also.…

Tonight began my very first night of my first Step Study program through Celebrate Recovery at Eastridge Community Church and I have been weighing in heavily tonight in devotion among an eye for an eye and not returning evil for evil.  As I have read tonight about Principle 6 Forgiveness I find myself stuck and at a crossroad for even expressing these feelings. But I have expressed them tonight at Celebrate Recovery step study and intend on working on Principle 6 being Forgiveness.

Do we wish for an eye for an eye or a tooth for a tooth? Especially when man has wronged or damned you?

Do we wish anxiety, fear, darkness, failure, downfall of others who have injured and harmed us? Do we wish for nightfall and darkness to cover their world? Is it possible to wish these things upon another and still pray for them and their souls for damning your life? Can you express being grief stricken to the point of madness and heartache and still love your enemy? If a child or loved one dies or is killed can you not be expected to grieve for that loss of relationship? My situation has been described in therapy as such. As such as the dying or passing of a child. I experience this day in and day out and am beginning this year as I have received my XI year recovery Chip from Celebrate Recovery to work on receiving some relief and reprieve from the anxiety, pain and grief that I am so torn over.

I have made a positive impression on the courts and in the courtroom and had much success as I have allowed the courts to handle each and every bit of this situation concerning my girls. I have never and would not take matters into my own hands but do feel that I need to work on Principle 6 Forgiveness in my step study over the next 9 months to a year so that when the time comes I will be able to not only explain to my youngest biological daughter the true details and facts of open court record of our alienation period and her father’s abuse but to also be able to show her in authenticated court documents and medical record of the abuse and hell I have had to endure and carry the burden of over the last 10 years.

As Mr. Sasser has not ever had complaint one about me as a mother nor as a wife and neither have my children or ex in laws for that matter I am left always asking myself then “What exactly is his hate and hate bashing problem?”

I will be blogging more and more of my Celebrate Recovery Step Study program over the next several months and on Thursday of this week I will be delivering the 12 Steps and their biblical promises at Celebrate Recovery. I invite and implore you to attend and become a visitor at Newcomers 101 at Celebrate Recovery. “The best place to be on a Thursday night.” “The very first day of the rest of your life.” Renee Rutledge

This photograph was taken for me on the lawn at Eastridge Community Church to mark my very first evening of a step study program and I will hold near to my heart each and every lesson as I work through each lesson each week praying for peace and sanctuary whereas my girls are dead to me due to man himself damning us and ruining our lives forevermore without reproach, concern or hesitation in hurting the 5 of us ladies. With no public nor personal apologies ever from Rockdale County even given The Rockdale County Sheriff’s Department, Lt. John Mumford, Northside Emergency Room staff, The DeKalb Community Service Board and attorney along with private psychiatrist have all been in attendance in Honorable Nation’s courtroom in the past to testify fully on my behalf.

I have prayed since a very young age of raising my 5 children that I would be able to make a difference in the O.C.G.A. and I feel that my life has been laid out to make that undeniable difference since a very young age. I have actually been praying for this opportunity and chance since I was a young juvenile girl with the legal representation of Honorable Ozburn as my family law attorney and mentor. I made a difference in the O.C.G.A. whereas my 3 legally adopted step – daughter’s were concerned for over 10 plus years while married to Mr. Sasser and do not and cannot fathom why Mr. Sasser or his family would ever think that I would not continue to pursue and have perseverance to continue to make that difference in the O.C.G.A. for al 4 of my girls. I pray that you as my reader can comprehend the pain, agony and just how grief stricken I have been for the last 10 years and yet still attempting to take the high road and positive demeanor and mannerisms where each and every individual that has hurt us has been concerned never bashing, hating nor threatening their lives nor livelihood only wanting them to see and feel just exactly the same pain that comes along with the passing or death of a child or loved one just as I have had to endure. Karma is not justice where these individuals are concerned. Incompetency is putting it lightly on their behalf. Lives that were well put together and high functioning even given the amount of family violence we experienced and the hurts, habits and hang ups of Mr. Sasser’s life that we all dealt with, me and my 5 children. I can only begin to imagine what life for them has been life without me in their life and how poorly as a matter of fact they have turned out with me all the while begging to continue to be a part of their lives along with the Opinion and court Order of many judges to present that it is in the best interest of my girls and myself to have the strong, open, loving and close bond we once shared. Mr. Sasser does not seem to care to comply with court Orders or Opinions beginning with Honorable Bills to Honorable Nation to Honorable Rhymer to Honorable Ozburn to Honorable McAdams all of the State of Georgia expressing that it is in the best interest of me and my girls to maintain a close, loving healthy relationship. Given my daughter is nearing 16 this Autumn I am not certain if the court would even rule on a contempt action against Mr. Sasser at this time given her age. I plan on conducting some further research into finding out given her age if the court will even hear a contempt petition against Mr. Sasser once again. As I have told the Rockdale County District Attorney’s Office directly to their faces ” I am not shutting up about my girls,” they are aware of what a determined and strong willed mother I am in protecting the best interest of my girls and actually were the ones that taught me this road of advocacy through the years of being married to Mr. Sasser raising 5 children. They should after their example not expect any less of me.

I have repeatedly shared what it is to become a Certified Peer Specialist for the State of Georgia. Including:

1100+ Georgia Certified Peer Specialists Since October 2001

Since 2001 to present

I have written often of becoming a Certified Peer Specialist to include the following requirements:

> Candidates must have diagnosis of mental illness or a dual diagnosis of mental illness and addictive disease and must desire to identify themselves as a person with mental illness current or former consumer of mental health services.

> Applicants must hold a high school diploma or GED and may be requested to provide a copy of this document.

> Must demonstrate strong reading comprehension and written communication skills as indicated on their responses on the pre – test which is part of the application.

> Must have demonstrated experience with leadership, advocacy or governance.

> Must be well grounded in recovery

These facts are taken directly from the Certified Peer Specialist brochure.

The motto of the CPS being “Each One Reach One.”

I will continue with my career in the health care world and continue working with the physically, mentally, developmentally and challenged and the elderly along with study for my Certified Peer Specialist essay examination and including attending church every opportunity I get at Celebrate Recovery and Celebrate Recovery step study program.

I pray tonight that the Lord guide me to the stage of forgiveness that I need to be at in my life and that he inflict a conscious upon Mr. Sasser for once in his life.

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